Are you awake yet?

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According to numerology, 2017 is a year 1 (2+0+1+7=10, 1+0=1), and 2016 has been a year 9 (2+0+1+6=9), which means as far as numerology goes, 2016 has been a year of completions and of cycles ending, and 2017 is a year of beginnings. If you take a look at the events of 2016, I’m sure you will notice an abundance of cycles ending in and around your life, whether they be deaths (look at the celebrity deaths this year!), relationships ending, careers changing, friendships distancing, or simply changes in habit patterns and the letting go of emotional issues you thought would be with you for much longer. 2016 has seen us release over and over, sometimes painfully, sometimes surprisingly, sometimes difficultly, but always necessary.

Have you started to wake up? Have you started to feel different? Have you started to notice the world around you in a different way?

I’ve noticed so many people starting to wake up and seek advice or counsel regarding the way they are feeling right now. Some are confused; it’s ok, it can be confusing to navigate and difficult to accept when you’ve always viewed the world in a particular way. Some are excited; that’s ok too, but pace yourself, you are in no rush, there is no end game, just the journey.

Someone asked me recently my advice on where to start, what to read, where to look…The truth is, there is no right answer for this. The biggest lesson you are about to learn is that the only person you should be listening to is yourself.

Let me tell you, there is sooooo much out there that you are going to learn. Right now, it probably seems like you have an awful lot of catching up to do…and you do, an entire universal history of catching up because the reality is, none of this is new! Whether its energy flow, spirit, crystals, tarot, healing, angels, meditation, astrology, manifestation, and a whole abundance of countless other forms and mediums that make up the universal consciousness and things above and beyond our five recognised senses. None of it is new. And all of it is available to you. You just have to listen to what resonates with you.

You will hear that a lot, “What resonates with you…” It means, what speaks to your soul. What feels right. What makes your heart flutter and your stomach flip flop. What feels like love; you know that feeling of falling in love? That curious crush, that exciting new chapter, that feeling of coming home…that’s what it is. The Universe is going to offer you opportunities, so pay attention to the smallest signs. Notice that advert, listen to that conversation, look for that indicator, that coincidence, that thing you can’t shake from your thoughts…The Universe it talking to you and when you start to listen, amazing things will start to happen.

You will face challenges, you will hit brick walls, you will find yourself lost…Don’t panic. Come back to yourself, centre, reassess what’s going on and keep going. There are lessons out there for you to learn along the way…and FYI, they never stop. This is not journey to a destination. There is no award or certificate handed out when you get there… “Congratulations, you are enlightened!” Nuhuh…it doesn’t work like that; this particular journey is going to take you lifetimes! And I can’t even begin to tell you how much peace and happiness it is going to bring you 🙂 

You are about to spread so much light into the world simply by following your own path.

That’s the key though….YOUR OWN PATH.

No one else’s.

All you need to do right now is listen. Trust. Smile. You’re already here.

Chakra Sunday – Heart

Today is the turn of our central chakra, the Heart Chakra.

The Heart Chakra  connects our lower chakras, the ones that are predominantly associated with out physical body, with our higher charkas, which are predominantly associated with our spiritual and emotional bodies. In particular, the Heart Chakra deals with love, but not just that of others, it is also enormously connected to the love we have for ourselves. When it is in balance, we feel loved and in harmony with those around us. It helps us to forgive, and allows us to feel compassion. When it is stagnant, out of balance, or blocked, it can bring about feelings of jealousy, fear of abandonment, anger and lack of empathy and compassion. It is physically connected to our circulatory system and lungs, and ailments such as high blood pressure and asthma, among others.

The most effective way to heal the Heart Chakra is to express gratitude and to be compassionate towards yourself as well as others.

Sitting comfortable, take a few deep cleansing breaths and visualise a green flower bud where your heart is. With each breath, the green flower begins to open, and beautiful green light begins to emanate from within it and spreads throughout your entire body. Say out loud, or to yourself;

“I love myself. I have love in abundance. I accept myself and those around me fully, with compassion and grace. I am grateful for all that I have. I am grateful for all that I am. I release any fear of rejection.”

This chakra is associated with the colour green, and being surrounded by the greenery of nature is very healing for the heart. Eating green vegetables will help, as well as wearing green clothes, and carrying green crystals such as Malachite, Jade, Emerald, or Peridot.

Keep your Heart Chakra healthy and open, folks. It is the bridge between the physical and spiritual bodies and when in balance can help influence the activity of the higher chakras enormously.

Love and light, peeps.

Namaste

xxx

When the reiki doesn’t flow…

Reiki is a gift from the Universe, and it is available to you whenever your intention is set. It flows easily whenever you speak of, engage in, or even think about your relationship with reiki.

For many of us, the above statement is entirely true, and then some. Anyone who has a relationship with reiki will understand this. I call it a relationship with reiki because that’s what it is. It will never be an insignificant piece of your life, even if it sits quietly in the background for a long time, it is always there.

So, what do we do as practitioners, or even simply reiki-ists, when the reiki doesn’t flow?

I recently had a reiki crisis. I’m going to call it a crisis of faith because even though reiki isn’t a religious process or practice, it is, in my opinion, as near as I will likely get to one. I had a crisis of faith because the reiki wouldn’t flow and the crystals wouldn’t speak (I’m a crystal therapist too).

Even self treatments didn’t help. I found myself agitated…unable to complete a simple self treatment without feeling anxious…frustrated.

Within the space of a week all my clients had either cancelled on me, or I on them, for one reason or another. It was a giant, massive, not-to-be-missed sign from the Universe.

I stopped.

I stopped everything and I waited.

I am a firm believer in following divine guidance and I try as much as possible not to resist when I’m being shown something very clearly. I figured that something was off, that I was resisting whatever was meant to be, and when the time was right the Universe would give me a clear cut sign that I was continue treating with reiki and crystals.

It’s taken several months for the reiki to come back…not that it ever really went anywhere…but it’s taken me that time to realise two very, very, important things regarding my practice with this amazing modality.

Number One – Reiki is for Me. I’d forgotten that the reason I started my journey with reiki was because it had a profound effect on me. Not because I just wanted to treat others. Of course, I wanted to help other people and that had a huge influence on my decision to practice rather than simply receive, but ultimately, the reiki has to be for me before it is for anyone else.

This is the first thing you learn when you start to learn reiki…that self treatments are the foundation of your practice and ability. That you are your most important client and unless you are well, you cannot offer anything to anyone else. It is not selfish to take care of yourself first, it is your responsibility as a practitioner.

Number Two – I cannot have an attachment to the outcome. Reiki flows where it is needed for a person’s highest good. While I knew this, and I told my clients this, it has taken me this time away to realise that I was absolutely forming an attachment to the outcome…It just happened so subtly. As a new practitioner, I wanted clients to get the best possible results from my treatments. I am still learning my craft and I’m unintentionally praying for miracles so I can validate myself and the reiki. When a client told me their back was aching, I would treat their back, but I would also will the reiki to remove the pain rather than simply let the reiki do its thing.

Willing reiki to do something reiki doesn’t want to do is just counterproductive. I was setting myself up for failure. I never meant to create these attachments, and I didn’t even realise I was doing it until I carried out my most recent treatment.

I worked on myself for a long time before. I performed my Hatsurei Ho several times in the days leading up to it. I sat back and let the reiki flow for itself. I didn’t think about what I wanted as the outcome for the treatment, I thought about nothing but brilliant white light flooding my client’s body and I listened to what the reiki told me throughout.

It was an amazingly different experience and one that gave me the same high that I got when I started working with reiki.

It’s not all over, my recovery from my crisis of faith, but at least the reiki is flowing happily now, and the crystals have started to speak again. This is a journey, a learning curve that I feel may never be finished…I will always be learning thanks to reiki, but I must stop focusing on the outcome and start enjoying the journey.Reiki.png

On coming back to myself…

So, I wanted to share something a little more personal and while browsing through some of my own writings on a different site, I came across this little rambling that I let fall out of my head a few months ago.

It’s worth noting that I did drag myself out of this place…I’m certain I’ll find my way back again, but as long as I always acknowledge it and push forward I will always find a way out.

Hopefully it might help a soul or two if it resonates with anyone…

I’m externalising again, and I need to come back to myself.

It’s been such a crazy few weeks…months…that I’ve let myself slip out of the place that I’d finally begun to feel happy in. The place inside myself that is here and now. I’ve always externalised. Always looked outside for something to fill the void, something to make it better. I’m not even looking right now for anything to make things better, I couldn’t be happier with my life, I’m just so damn used to living there that I hadn’t even noticed I’d been doing it.

It came like a lightening bolt, out of the blue. The ground beneath me shook and for a moment, I lost my bearings. I began to fall and while I looked around for someone to catch me, I realised I’d been doing it again…Looking around for someone to catch me.

Catch your own damn self, Ej.

Life runs away with you when you’re not looking. I need to stop and catch my breath again. I need to get back to myself. I was there…I know I can do it again…I just need to reign myself in and sit in it.

I feel like there’s pain to come.

I never liked pain…Well, not in this manner, anyway.

But you can’t grow without pain, and you can’t learn if you consistently turn your back on the lessons.

I think my ground shook for a reason. Maybe to throw me off balance, maybe to force me to see. I trusted the ground to stay safe and stable. But even the ground can shake and crumble.

This inane rambling was brought to you from the messed up mind of Ej…Don’t worry if it makes no sense to you…It probably wasn’t meant to.

(Picture credit – Me! I painted that!) untitled.png

Chakra Sunday! – Solar Plexus

Ok, ok, so it’s technically Monday, but I spent my Sunday evening preparing for a Crystal Therapy treatment and I don’t think ‘Chakra Monday’ is quite the same…and besides, when it’s this close to Christmas and the weather is cold and wet, we all need a little help from out Sunshine Chakra.

Moving up our Hara Line to the third chakra, the Solar Plexus is located just below the ribs and above the belly button. It is firmly associated with self-confidence, self-esteem, and personal power. When it is off balance it can create a fear of rejection, indecisiveness, passiveness, sluggishness, and a victim mentality that can lead to depression.

Sitting comfortably, ground yourself by taking a few deep, cleansing breaths and visualise that breath being drawn into your Solar Plexus. With each inhalation, imagine the breath becoming a bright yellow light that spreads outward from your body. Feel the warmth of the light like rays of the sun spreading throughout your body from the point of your Solar Plexus. Say out oud, or to yourself,

“I love myself. I accept myself. I am worthy. I am confident. I stand in my own power and release judgements placed upon me, by myself and those around me.”

The chakra really is the Sunshine Chakra and vibrates with the colour yellow and the energy of the sun. Eating yellow foods such as sweetcorn, pineapples, bananas, and turmeric will help keep this chakra in balance, as will wearing the colour yellow and carrying crystals like Citrine, Sunstone, Amber, or Tiger’s Eye.

Pay close attention to this one, folks…Of all the chakras, this one can cause the most trouble when it’s out of balance, even by being too open (which can lead to arrogance), but it can also bring you the most peace and happiness when it is balanced and taken care of.

Love and Light to you all

xxx

Chakra Sunday! – Sacral Chakra

Chakra Sunday! Tonight is the turn of the second Chakra, the Sacral Chakra and is located in the reproductive area of the body. The Sacral Chakra is associated with creativity, sexuality, and our emotions. When the Sacral Chakra is blocked we can feel guilt and shame, possessiveness, and jealousy. Physically, it can also contribute to fertility issues or low libido.

Sit comfortably and take a few deep breaths. Breath into your pelvic area and try to visualise a orange light emanating from below your naval. With each breath, make the light brighter, until it fills the lower part of your body. Say out loud, or to yourself,

“I feel. I create. I am enough. I am a beautiful, radiant, passionate soul. I attract and nurture only positive relationships.”

This Chakra resonates with the colour orange, so eating oranges, passionfruit, pumpkin, butternut squash, or anything of the bright, vibrant, orange variety will really help if you’re focusing on bringing your Sacral Chakra into balance.

Red Aventurine, Citrine and Red Carnelian are good crystals to have on your person.

So, there you have it 🙂 Enjoy this one, peeps, it’s one of the most commonly blocked of the chakras and, I think, can often reap the most rewards when it is in balance.

xxx

Chakra Sunday! – The Root Chakra

It’s Chakra Sunday! …Paying a little attention to your chakras is a vital way to connect with yourself and bring some balance to your mind, body, and spirit.

I’m going to start with the Root Chakra, at the base of the spine, simply because it’s considered the first of the seven chakras and it’s related to grounding. It’s Sunday evening, tomorrow is Monday and we’re so often run ragged in preparation for the new week ahead…Who doesn’t need a little grounding when we feel like this?

Sit comfortably, take a few deep breaths and with each exhale feel yourself become more and more rooted to the spot. Say the following (either aloud or to yourself), as many times as you like or feel you need;

“I am safe. I am secure. I am grounded. I am exactly where I need to be. I have everything I need. I release fear and embrace trust.”

The Root Chakra is represented by the colour red. It can help to visualise this colour, wear it, even eat it (red apples, tomatoes, strawberries…you get the idea) and if you’re at all into your Crystals, try holding a piece of Hematite, Carnelian, Red Jasper, or Smokey Quartz.

If the Root Chakra is blocked, or unbalanced, we can feel fearful, disconnected, and lacking in energy. It can cause problems with the digestive system, the immune system, and create pains in the feet and legs.

Now the weather is warming up, go outside and sit on the grass, it’s the perfect place for this Earth Element Chakra 🙂

Love your chakras, folks! xxx

Just Breathe…

Today I have done little more than just breathe. 

In and out.

Yes, I did a few chores and took care of my family, like every day, but today I am aware that I can breathe.

It seems such a simple thing, and let’s be honest, most of the time we all take it for granted, but what a wonderful and amazing gift it is to be able to breathe.

I am alive. I am breathing. I am grateful.

Love and Light,

E xxx

It Hasn’t Been Easy…

So, I’ve been AWOL for some time now, in almost every one of my writing capacities. I could say it hasn’t been intentional, but it hasn’t been entirely unintentional either. I’ve spent the vast majority of the last 12 months on a massive journey of personal development. To say my whole life has changed would be an understatement. It was not planned, it was not preempted, and it certainly wasn’t expected, yet it has been the most gratifying (and at times difficult) journey that I have ever been on.

Only one thing has remained a constant in this last year, and shall remain a constant in the years to come; first and foremost, I am a mother. But, it is not unreasonable to state that every other aspect of my life is unrecognisable from where I was.

I’ve learned an awful lot about myself along the way, and I will continue to learn an awful lot about myself in the future; I am ever evolving and no matter how much we might want life to stand still on occasion, it has absolutely no intention of doing so, so we must all keep moving, keep learning, and keep growing.

However, I can say without a shadow of a doubt that I am a better person right now than I was. I am a happier person right now than I was.

I believe we all have a path. Call it fate, or destiny, or whatever you choose, but ultimately I believe it is all one in the same. I believe that when we follow that path, we receive great things, we feel fulfilled, we are content. I believe that when we deviate from that path, or fight it, we start to feel unhappy, stagnant, bored, distracted, isolated, disconnected, and any number of negative emotions that we ignore or brush under the carpet.

For me, making the decision to find my way back to my path was a fully conscious and extremely painful one. I had to take every idea and concept I had ever had about my life and its trajectory and cast it all aside. I had to throw away a lifetime of plans and ambitions (of my own and of other’s), and start from scratch. From the beginning. Without a safety net and no light at the end of the tunnel.

I took a leap of faith.

The problem was, I had begun a process of awakening within myself and I had absolutely no way to shut it down. The Universe was going to throw its all at me and I could either choose to embrace what was happening to me, or I could bury my head in the sand and those negative emotions would just begin piling up on top of me.

I fought the decision hard. To be honest, I have fought an awful lot over the past year, but when the Universe has other ideas, there really is no point fighting, because, as a friend of mine likes to point out, it’s just going to keep coming for me till it turns up with a sledgehammer. As has been the case for me on many occasions.

So, I made the decision to embrace my awakening.

Boy, does the game really begin when you do that.

You see, a lot of people have this idea that a journey of self-discovery is all flowery and fluffy with lots of lovely, relaxing, meditations, when in reality, it’s a little more like being a rollercoaster that you have a kind of love/hate thing going on with and you can’t get off. The thing is, this particular path is inevitably painful.

Aside from the actual, physical decisions that I have made, and some of the brutal lessons I have had to confront head on, I have also had my fair share of reality inducing epiphanies. The sort where you actually get to look real hard and real close at the person you are, and the reasons you are the person you are, and either accept them, or let them go.

This. Is. Hard.

We become the idea we have of ourselves and we form an identity through the way we behave and the decisions we make based on the evidence and experience we have in front of us. The problem is, we’re under the illusion that we are solely affected by outside influences and we have a terrible habit of blaming an awful lot of our character of things that have happened to us along the way.

This is the hard bit.

Owning up to the idea that actually, we have always had a choice to react to everything in a different way, or in a better way, is pretty challenging. Taking responsibility for the people that we are, especially the bits we don’t like about ourselves, is not easy.

Confronting things that happened to me with a very realistic attitude, and coming at them in my head from the angle that I actually feel about them, rather than the angle that I’ve convinced myself I should feel about them and then dealing with them emotions is not easy.

Stepping up to the plate and making myself accountable for everything that I do, say, think, and feel, in such a way that I recognise this is my journey, and my path, and no one can help me through this particular part can be lonely, and let me tell you, it is not easy.

I’m not really selling this whole self-development thing, am I?

Well, let me also tell you this…

I could not be happier.

I have a much better understanding of who I am now. For the first time in my life, I can genuinely and honestly say that I like myself and that I’m happy in my own skin.

I’m not fighting against the tide any more. I’m not seeking my happiness externally, with things or ideas. I just am.

I am happy.

I’ve been given so many wonderful gifts since I started this journey; it’s as if I’m being rewarded for progressing up my personal and spiritual ladder, which I suppose I am. I most recently completed my Reiki First Degree, something I have wanted to do for over 10 years but never thought I would get round to. It’s amazing what you manage to ‘get round to’ when you realise you deserve to put yourself first.

And that’s it really, that’s what it’s all about; realising that you deserve to put yourself first. I’ve had a quote that’s gone round and round in my head ever since I started this whole thing, and one day I will have it emblazoned on a wall in my home, or maybe even tattooed on my body…

“You are a child of the Universe; no less than the trees or stars.”