Reiki is a gift from the Universe, and it is available to you whenever your intention is set. It flows easily whenever you speak of, engage in, or even think about your relationship with reiki.
For many of us, the above statement is entirely true, and then some. Anyone who has a relationship with reiki will understand this. I call it a relationship with reiki because that’s what it is. It will never be an insignificant piece of your life, even if it sits quietly in the background for a long time, it is always there.
So, what do we do as practitioners, or even simply reiki-ists, when the reiki doesn’t flow?
I recently had a reiki crisis. I’m going to call it a crisis of faith because even though reiki isn’t a religious process or practice, it is, in my opinion, as near as I will likely get to one. I had a crisis of faith because the reiki wouldn’t flow and the crystals wouldn’t speak (I’m a crystal therapist too).
Even self treatments didn’t help. I found myself agitated…unable to complete a simple self treatment without feeling anxious…frustrated.
Within the space of a week all my clients had either cancelled on me, or I on them, for one reason or another. It was a giant, massive, not-to-be-missed sign from the Universe.
I stopped everything and I waited.
I am a firm believer in following divine guidance and I try as much as possible not to resist when I’m being shown something very clearly. I figured that something was off, that I was resisting whatever was meant to be, and when the time was right the Universe would give me a clear cut sign that I was continue treating with reiki and crystals.
It’s taken several months for the reiki to come back…not that it ever really went anywhere…but it’s taken me that time to realise two very, very, important things regarding my practice with this amazing modality.
Number One – Reiki is for Me. I’d forgotten that the reason I started my journey with reiki was because it had a profound effect on me. Not because I just wanted to treat others. Of course, I wanted to help other people and that had a huge influence on my decision to practice rather than simply receive, but ultimately, the reiki has to be for me before it is for anyone else.
This is the first thing you learn when you start to learn reiki…that self treatments are the foundation of your practice and ability. That you are your most important client and unless you are well, you cannot offer anything to anyone else. It is not selfish to take care of yourself first, it is your responsibility as a practitioner.
Number Two – I cannot have an attachment to the outcome. Reiki flows where it is needed for a person’s highest good. While I knew this, and I told my clients this, it has taken me this time away to realise that I was absolutely forming an attachment to the outcome…It just happened so subtly. As a new practitioner, I wanted clients to get the best possible results from my treatments. I am still learning my craft and I’m unintentionally praying for miracles so I can validate myself and the reiki. When a client told me their back was aching, I would treat their back, but I would also will the reiki to remove the pain rather than simply let the reiki do its thing.
Willing reiki to do something reiki doesn’t want to do is just counterproductive. I was setting myself up for failure. I never meant to create these attachments, and I didn’t even realise I was doing it until I carried out my most recent treatment.
I worked on myself for a long time before. I performed my Hatsurei Ho several times in the days leading up to it. I sat back and let the reiki flow for itself. I didn’t think about what I wanted as the outcome for the treatment, I thought about nothing but brilliant white light flooding my client’s body and I listened to what the reiki told me throughout.
It was an amazingly different experience and one that gave me the same high that I got when I started working with reiki.
It’s not all over, my recovery from my crisis of faith, but at least the reiki is flowing happily now, and the crystals have started to speak again. This is a journey, a learning curve that I feel may never be finished…I will always be learning thanks to reiki, but I must stop focusing on the outcome and start enjoying the journey.